I sought for an answer, the Universe speaks in a language I would understand, but know a little later. I am a dreamer, and this is a gift.. one of my gifts.
Night after night, passing up the chance to sleep with the aid of science, my gift takes me places and the Universe spills its message to me gently. I see only a series of two positions. Emotions and vivid surroundings and symbols that had plenty of meaning to me now.. now that I have awakened.
October 18, 2009
I am in a room.. clean, quiet, spacious and well lit. It was a corner room. Only a bed and a table was inside it. The corner walls were made of glass from waist-high stretching up for more than 4 feet in height. The glass window was squeaky clean. Not a taint of dustiness nor smudges from oil or other dirt. It was perfectly clean and flawless.
The room stands fairly 2 and a half storey higher than the ground. It gave me a sense of being in a very controlled environment. One that is out of my control. It felt like it was a control room, though quite barren in nature. There was a laptop on the table infront of where my twin was sitting.
Scene 1:
I sit on the edge of the bed, whose sheets were untouched. Clean and very well kept. It was not my bed. It was a hard bed. I don't like it. I lean my head on the biceps of my twin. I feel a certain surge of sadness. My chest feels heavy as I droop my head and my gaze towards the floor. My twin had opposite emotions. There was happiness and contentment in the eyes of my twin, quite oblivious of my own pain. I wonder why there was a feeling of detachment. Why were there clashes of emotions? Shouldn't my own twin feel the same emotion as mine?
Scene 2:
I was drawn towards the window. The high stretch of the glass makes it look like an invisible window. I put my right hand on the window to feel it. It wasn't cold. It felt like I was holding my palm outside in its crisp moist air outside.. but there was no air felt. I was still inside the room, enclosed by the huge intimidating windows.
I look out. The entire place was covered in auburn color. I start to wonder where I am. I ask my conscience where I am. Boston. I was in Boston. There was sadness inside me, looking out to the open like that. Why are there no people outside?
There was a lake at the left of my view. The big (almost 10 times the normal size of the) sun at dusk made the water of the lake glitter peacefully. It seemed like no creature has been living there. No fish, no nothing. It was dead and barren but beautiful on the outside. There were pine trees immediately infront of me, on the ground. The lake meets with two mountains that looked so peaceful too.
Immediately below me is a playground. It felt like it was a playground supposedly, but I did not see any swings or see saws, or any play infrastructure. Instead, at the right side of my view, I saw a huge wooden infrastructure that stood a bit taller than one storey's height. I fell curious at that wooden thing. What was it really? Its shape formed similar to an anchor. At closer inspection, it felt like it could fit more than one man inside it. Noah's ark? No, it didn't look like that at all. But it definitely felt like people should be there, or that people could be there, or that I need to look into it myself, or go there myself.
The whole place gave me a general feeling of sadness.. but what is the timeframe of this dream? I don't know. Could be now, could be tomorrow, and could be years from now.
The interpretation of symbols
Anchor
To see an anchor in your dream, signifies stability and security. You may be looking for a solid foundation. Alternatively, it indicates that you are someone who stands firmly on your views and opinions.
On the other hand, an anchor may be seen as a symbol for something that is holding you back and restraining your freedom. Consider a relationship that may not be working or a career that is going no where for you.
Glass
To see glass in your dream, symbolizes passivity or protection. You may be putting up an invisible barrier to protect yourself in a situation or relationship. If the glass is dirty, cloudy or discolored, then it suggests that you are not seeing something clearly. You need more clarity in a situation. To dream that you are drinking from a glass, is an omen of good luck.
To dream that you are looking through glass, represents your openness and non-defensiveness. Alternatively, you may be putting up an invisible emotional barrier around yourself
Lake
To see a lake in your dream, signifies your emotional state of mind. You feel restricted or that you are unable to express your emotions freely. Alternatively, the lake may provide you with solace, security, and peace of mind. If the lake is clear and calm, then it symbolize your inner peace. If the lake is disturbed, then you may be going through some emotional turmoil.
Mountains
To see mountains in your dream, signify many major obstacles and challenges that you have to overcome. If you are on top of the mountain, then it indicates that you have achieved and realized your goals. You have recognized your full potential. Alternatively, mountains denote a higher realm of consciousness, knowledge, and spiritual truth.
To dream that you are climbing a mountain, signifies your determination and ambition.
To dream that you fall off a mountain, suggests that you are in a hurry to succeed without thoroughly thinking about your path to success. Or that you are being forced upward toward a direction that you do not want to go or that you are not ready to proceed. Falling off a mountain, could also mean that you have a tendency to give up or escape from demanding situations.
Pine Tree
To see a pine tree in your dream, symbolizes immortality, life, and/or fertility. The dream could also be a pun on "pining" for something or someone.
Playground
To dream that you are on a playground, indicates your desires to escape from your daily responsibilities. Consider also objects in the playground as expressing or your need to express some aspect of yourself. Perhaps you need to be more carefree or have some fun getting to know some of your talents and abilities that you have long ignored or disregarded.
Sun
To see the sun in your dream, symbolizes peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. It also represents radiant energy and divine power. It is a good omen to have the sun shining in your dream.
Window
To see windows in your dream, signifies bright hopes, vast possibilities and insight. If the windows of a house is dark, then it indicates a loss in your perception or vitality.
To dream that you are looking out the window, signifies your outlook on life, your consciousness, point of view, awareness, and intuition. You may be reflecting on a decision and seeking guidance. Or you need to go out into the larger world and experience life. If you are looking in the window, then it indicates that you are doing some soul searching and looking within yourself.
-- http://www.dreammoods.com/dreamdictionary
I am in a place that I thought could make me happy. I was with someone whom I thought could make me happy. I thought I was in the right way to my happiness. My calling was painted in the entire view that I saw outside. Even my daily readings from Facebook's God wants you to know was itching to tell it to my face. I just have to read my own fate. The Universe has given me the answers I sought for. All I had to do was act. All I have to do is awaken.
My abilities are underway in their development. Everyone was part of the big picture. Friends, family, my cat, my twin, and some enemies. I have received my calling.
Yesterday, I have found one truth about my past, and learned a bit about my future. I had to be strong to deliver the message. I have to be strong to be able to find the happiness I have been waiting for. Last night, was deliverance. I felt myself fuse with my inner self and lifted myself up from pains and worries. I felt many different vibrations, and I felt good. You see, its not just another dream. It was the road to happiness. Unexplained, but experienced.