I miss him
<p>I'm sitting here in my room. I could have gone with him and his family for a trip to places in Manila where I can relax and just have fun, but here I am, I chose to do my filthy work.
Since morning, I've been wanting to finish this boring work. I carefully slip into work stuffs and into downloads and into non work related things. I just can't get this focus to hold still. I resent the air that fills this very room. Its getting dark now, but still no work gets completed.
I look at pictures, I try to clean my folders. I come across our pictures at the office. Those where times when I wouldn't have known that we would end up together. I saw pictures that made me feel different emotions. Some of anger, resentment, hate, love, and even jealousy. I feel twisted. My mind is wracking thoughts of unknown origin. I hate it when this happens.
I feel hungry for stuffs that I'm not supposed to eat, so I munch on a left over Mr. Chips pack from the kitchen. I grab a cup of Reese's chocolate, and one mini bar of toblerone. All of which, are food not for me to eat. Sigh… Mama comes home. She's bought me a couple of handkerchiefs that she proudly says, "Ayan, sayo ang mga panlalaking panyo… buti naman at di na kayo magkakapalit-palit pa.." Hmmm.. I've got weird taste, yeah?
I went outside to refill my 1.4L of water jug for it was near empty already. I only take warm water. I hate cold water most of the times. I caught sight of mini oranges in a net on the dinner table. I take on, quickly peels of the outside covering and munched on it before I got back to my room. What a senseless day! I can only brag about having completed downloading the three albums of my favorite Chillout/Ambient artist and I'm now copying it all to my phone.
Then what? I wanted to SMS him, but I know he must be busy or for all I know, he might be driving. I don't want to interrupt, although I'm dying from missing him. Yeah, that must be it. I miss him bad right now. I really do.